""For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."" Jeremiah 29:11
The verse that is given for so many situations, I have to be honest, when I hear this verse at times I think, "Oh not that one again.." Yes, it's true. I know I shouldn't feel that way. I know that every word from the scriptures is God breathed. They all bring life, but sometimes I just want God to give me a word that isn't written on everything. I am selfish. I will admit that. But..guess what? He gave me this verse months and months ago, and I just tossed it to the side because I was thinking that surely I am creating this wonderful verse because I want to hear this verse. I know that my mind thinks weird, but that is how I think. To be honest, I have been in a strange pit. It's not your typical God isn't talking to me pit. It was a live like your dying pit. I know, I know...this is a wonderful thing to live like. Live like every moment is your last, but really I just can say today I don't agree with that thought. Maybe because I think so oddly...I dwell too much on death. I can honestly tell you I have been afraid of death for about 7 months now since my miscarriage. Life is a crazy thing. One day you have a thought go through your mind while you are pregnant. That crazy thought was "you and the baby will die"...pan to a month later, and you are having a miscarriage. That was all it took. The downward spiral of thinking I was dying began. God gave me Jeremiah 29:11. I didn't want to cling to it because possibly maybe that verse wasn't from God, and I just WANTED it to be from God because I was scared. Being scared is scary. It is confusing...it d.r.a.i.n.s. every fiber of your being! So, that is where I have been. Living like I was dying. What if today was the last day to see my children..tears would fall...if I travel for pleasure I may die while getting there...maybe i should stay home...what if...what if...what if....living like your dying isn't fun. I knew God didn't want me here. I cried out to Him everyday, and everyday He sent wonderful people to encourage me, but I wasn't satisfied. Even if the doctor told me I was alright, I couldn't cling to that truth. My hair was still falling out, my stomach is still acting messed up. I was clinging to everything, but really clinging to nothing but living like I was dying. Until today! I am going to look at it differently. I am going to live like I am living! God showed this to me.
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy: I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" John 10:10
There is only one who came to steal, kill, and destroy. My God didn't die on the cross so I could live like I was dying! He came to give me life, and to live like I was LIVING! Not to think this is our LAST moment, but to relish in THIS moment! To truly live is to live IN CHRIST! Death has no victory over me.
"Where, O death, is you rvictory? Where, O death, is your sting? 1 Corinthians 15:55
There is no sting because there is no death! We have been freed from the law of sin and death! So, what do I need to do now? I need to stand firm. Let nothing move me. To stay true to the verse that He gave me,
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
That verse is living like you're living!
I pray that this has encouraged you in some way. If you struggle with anything run to your God. I would love to pray with you through it as well. We are not on this journey of living like you're living alone! This is a group thing! Please, comment and let me know. I would be honored to pray with you! The struggle is real, but our God is BIGGER...and He hears us when we call on Him!!!!